I have on need of this site anymore. Maybe i'll post the occasional poem or writing i get that's usually an epiphany, but i don't need to vent here anymore. :) She's all i need. I officially retire my -Happy Belli!

I've been gone i know.   but its not like anyone reads this do they?

eh whatever

so one of my babies had like 20 viruses so i fixed it and now im back here =]

lot of things been going on

time to make or break

its crunch time i guess


oh yea i ran today.
it felt good
i should run more often
you feel power after you run
not literally but you know.
you feel like you're that much closer




-Happy Belli!

Only us
Only we
Two of us
its not breezy
but only both
can know the place
only we can see
each's face
i gave
you gave
special place
no longer living
but still there
for eternal being
i like to visit
from time to time
hope you can see it
while you read this rhyme





-Happy Belli!

Yes yes  it is time. Time to open my eyes and find a significant other.

It's not what you think though.
To have a girlfriend, i need money
which means i need a job
i will need time
which means i need my priorities straight


This doesn't mean im looking for one and is desperate for companionship
but it does mean that i will create opportunities and start to open my heart little by little
no matter how corny that seems, i think i've really gone too cold

Although being single has its ups and downs,
i've come to realize that i'd rather have someone to be with

It's a lonely world out there and many people are in that world.
It's so unfair.
i take in account that there are so many of us that aren't necessarily depressingly lonely
but are in need of recognition and once in a while need the feeling of worthiness

I strongly believe in "it's better to have loved then lost than to have never loved at all"

Trust me when i say that i have been through heartbreaks and i am not aiming to feel those feelings again

so why you ask?
why go through all the steps and fight for it?
why now?
why not stay individual?

I say why not?

of course this won't come quickly and i dont expect to "fall in love" with anyone within the next months even

i cant even sustain a relationship until i have Time & Money

I am in no rush and i am not desperate.
I simply wouldn't mind having someone to talk to on the way home
or when i wake up

I'm sure  God will have a say in it and i'll be there to listen when he does.

Too bad i'm picky or else this would be easy.



"Everyone has their bag"




-Happy Belli!

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-Happy Belli!